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| bah im super excited, we started a new project in art with watercolors,
it was SOO much fun to play with them today in class, we just kinda sat
around and did different techniques in little boxes, and mr. ford
actually laughed with us and stuff. im beginning to love that class. im
starting to really enjoy ASL too. im beginning to love ASL, and i'm
really digging the culture, if things keep going the way they are im
thinking about actually doing something with ASL..so that will be cool.
my frustration of today,
i love swimming. i really do. i cant stand it when i get frustrated, or
the fact that im out of shape again. i wish i hadnt been sick, i wish i
had been able to play in over like 2 of the polo games. i wish most of
my team would open up to me. lately i find myself feeling i dunno,
lonely during swimming. eh well, i guess im gunna piss off more people
by not being able to swim tomorrow. bad grades. :sigh: oh well.
on friday i might get to go see jake, after 7 months!
were dating again, and im so happy. he has this idea in his head to get
me a ring...i was like no you don't have to do that, but he insists. i
dunno.
asdlfjhaserf!
amber agreed to MAYBE take me to see him, but im happy, YAY!
well i gotta go do homework. i have a few projects i need to work on, so just updating.
later loves.
-jackie
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| nothing intresting happened at school today. i chilled with marc at
lunch, and lots of people thought my hair was cute..eh whateva. so then
i got home, and did nothing but chill for about 45 minutes (i took a
nap) and i woke up, bored, so i decided to go exercise. i used the
bowflex for about 15 minutes, rode the bike for about 20, did the dry
land work out for swimming, and then i attempted to get the tred mill
out, buuutt i couldnt find the plug thingie so i said fuck it. i came
inside and turned on FROU FROU and did yoga and worked on stretching my
muscles to the max, and finding my inner balance (eek), i also
attempted doing some aerobics in the form of dancing, but im clumsy,
out of shape and uncoordinated at the time being so im not gunna work
on that for a few more weeks. i feel good right now, my knees havent
bothered me one bit (surprising) and i forgot how much i loved to do
yoga and just goof around. i guess im gunna try doing this 3 times a
week, and twice a weekend. so yes, im gunna go start a load of laundry,
take a shower, run up to target to get a sports bra (OMG FREE FALLING
BOOBS HAHAHAHAA), come home and eat, and then work on homework. ill
update later if theirs anything worth updating.
-jackie
i love you jake molder!
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| "you say you want to put yourself out there, and be in a relationship.
Yea you'll have a boy, but what happens when he leaves jackie?
[[which he might just do]] YOU'LL HAVE NO NO ONE. all of your friends
will be gone, so THEN you'll be alone.
all mandee has done is look at for your best interests, but you just turn her away."
I don't need any superficial friends. I have my family. Thats all that
matters to me anymore. I could spend everyday for the rest of my life
alone, and not come in contact with any human, and not care, because I
have my family, and their going to be there for me until the end. I
don't need friends, I don't need a relationship, and what all of you
fail to see is that Jake is like family, he's been there for me when
YOU havent. I don't care what you think anymore, I have what I need,
the question is do you? Can you say you could care less if your friends
just disappeared one day like all of mine suddenly have? I can. I do
not care. The end.
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| ok so i shouldnt be doing this entry in the first place but whatever.
its not about chance anymore, its not about fucking brittany, its not
about any petty person from fucking school. if you HAVE the nerve to
sit here and criticize me without even knowing why im talking the way
im talking or thinking the way im thinking, then your a peice of shit
and need to get a life.
if you HAVE to know whats fucking going on ask me about it instead of
just fucking ASSUMING you have a fucking clue whats going on.
and as for Jake, fuck you if you don't think he already loves me,
because he does, and I love him. so fuck off and die if you cant accept
my happiness, I'm not just going to avoid fucking heart break for the
rest of my life, and atleast I have the balls to get into a fucking
relationship with someone. So kiss my ass.
Also, if you must know the reason I'm so "petty" about him and her?
Because, friends don't do that, and you can say "I wouldnt think that"
all you want, but if I went out with Ryan, YOUD BE PISSED. SO quit
fucking lying to yourself, and lying to anyone and everyone around you
who will listen to you. I've said nothing to them other than leave me
alone or don't talk to me, YOU are the one creating drama. YOU are the
one creating turbulence, and you really have no business creating drama
in a matter that doesnt even involve you. So fuck off Mandee, and
seriously get a fucking life, because your dragging down mine.
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